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fuck yew all.

I have had SO MUCH happen lately... girls, mono, ears, blood, doctors, puking, crazy bulimic head cases and ex girlfriends that make me cry.
Shae left me an amaizingly sweet blog comment the other day on myspace, and now I can't stop thinking about her.
will she ever change and realize the problems she has caused?
no... I don't think so.
-Tran

Yeah, so as alot of you (who read my other journal) know, I have been stabbed in the fucking back for no reason by a maldramatic bitch. heh. what do you expect when dealing with women? what the fuck ever.
Fuck this livejournal.
I'm just gonna start writing in my private one.
FUCK!
email me to be added.
rainbow_chinchilla@yahoo.com

Today I am going to chill with this guy named Alexander whos friends with Sarah. I know this sounds sketchy, but we met online. But Britney and Sarah know him, and he isn't a creep, just an asshole... so I'm not too worried. HAHA! He is driving a fucking hour and a half and going out to buy some pot. I don't know where we're going to smoke, probably at my house or w/e. I'm pretty psyched. I love hanging out with new people. woo!
but yeah. Dessy is pissed and uncomfortable with me hanging out with guys (becase of my history with them) and I'm like "eh... its not like we're going to have sex or anything! GOD! fucking eh. Whatever, I would be uncomfortable too.
-Tran Lovely

So it is 3 50 am. I am sitting on my couch, about to go to bed, psyched cause I now have a new nifty frank icon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But i would LOVE a labrynth icon (*hints to her loving and talented girlfriend*)
well I think I am gonna veg out in a few
peacers!
-Tran lovely

so I dyed my hair and am super sick and lonely and bla
note to self: use this vaca to sleep.

here are some new pics of myself:













-Tran Lovely

I fucking hate valentines day.

Is the worstest invention in the world.
BLEEECK!!!!!!!!

Wow, that was a happy title wasn't it? Yeah, I thought so. So last night, I saw Dessy for the first time in two weeks, so I was happy. Even though I HAAAD to go over to her parent's house if I wanted to see her, which really sucked cause I don't like her mom and it's always high tension over there. but anyways, so I am in the car with her when she askes me if I knew this guy who graduated a couple years ago, Rory. Awsome guy, I didn't know him REALLY well, but I had talked to him a few times and he had a kid with someone I used to be really good friends with. I had heard countless stories of him being drunk driving down the road trying to outrun a cop on his moped, stuff like that. He was a silly guy, really intilectual when he was sober too! So I tell Dessy that I didn't KNOW Rory, but we knew of eachother and he was a fucking wikid awsome guy. And she told me that he killed himself the other day. And then I had to spend the entire night not crying. I couldn't cry around Becky (Dessys's mom) because she is an insensitive bitch. I whent over there a couple days after Mike died (which I am still not healed from) and she tried to act like a martyr, and she just purpously gets under my skin all of the time! AHG!!!!! And I didn't want to put the downer on the thing. But Dessy's sister and her boyfriend were there being all mopy, and they kept telling people to stop talking about things that reminded them of Rory and it was just so stressful and tence. Then I find out how Dessy's mom thinks that suicide is the most selfish thing that a person could so. That pisses me off when someone says that. You're not supposed to be angry at them. If someone kills themselves then odviously theres something wrong! I mean... you shouldn't be like "oh, they are soooo selfish, no morning or mercy for them allowed!" God I hate that! It just doesn't seem right and it doesn't seem like the right thing to do in any situation at all. People really should listen to people and try to help them. But I think that coveting a person is was more selfish then the sad individual making a life choice, no matter how irrational it is. I have friends who have died from slitting her wrists, another to heroin overdosage, someone swirved at one of my friends in rural suburbia and killed her (they didn't get in trouble), two to a snowmobileing accident, and now I've lost someone to them shooting themselves. No matter how close are distant they are from me, if I know the person, if I know of them, it will hurt. I didn't spend countless hours crying like I did with the others. I watched a sad movie and let out all of my crying during that when the man slapped his girlfriend of four years and she leaves him and the he finds out her name wasn't Alice Ayres and how she wasn't lieing to the man in the strip club. It was all so trajic and depressing, even though I had watched it countless time, I still cried. and then I some reasion started crying about every single person I have ever dated or had been friends with and how I miss them and love them still, and it was so weird. And I am just plane sad now. Not depressed, just sad. And that, I think, is a worse feeling than being depressed. Because atleast you can put pity on yourself when you are depressed.
-Tran Lovely

Every guitarist has been to a tap/chord site, right? Well now the MPA (music publishers association) is trying to make it illegal! Mr. Lauren Kizer is attempting to shut all of the sites down and fine the site owners and go as far as throwing some of them in jail. The consider it to be the same as pirating, even though its not like they are taking the industry’s music and selling it on the black market. As they say “they want to shut down people who give away free stuff”
They have already shut down the number one tab site (taborama.com).

These tabs are the artist’s own ingurgitation of the song and is used for private use and study, as it says on every fucking tab site! What the fuck?!?!!??!?! I hate this so much! Music is no longer music, it has turned into another piece of property to sell. Pretty soon, the man will be killing off all of the indie and unsigned bands and it will become something were you don’t have to have any talent, you just have to sell. It will become an artistic genocide! I CAN’T STAND THIS!!!!!
Am I the only one who thinks this is seriously fucked up?